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Wednesday, February 28, 2007, 2:35 AM
mug mug mug.
how cute, haha.
our chewy time.
my turn. ha.
all named as butterfly, its not style, its pure laziii-ness.
tie what, no need la. just roll it.
run with me.
WOOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
That was too last minute to consider a pass.
I threw away theory marks, 6 7 8.
Went to school.
'darling quick help me, what to study. omg omg.'
laughs, i think they're so use to it.
and there goes my white hair.
everyday after school.
'im coming now, when i reach i'll call. what food you want?'
room service la, haha.
enjoying the companying.
all the vcds and tv shows.
and and and all the plans to be coming up.
picnic, steamboat, genting, drinking, full week stay over,
movies and more, mj, chalet, thailand trip.
omg omg omg.
im so looking forward to every single day.
exams end on thurs, DRINKING!!
i dont chase and im not the ideal kind of kite.
Tuesday, February 27, 2007, 3:53 AM
fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you.you deserve to be like this.
fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you.
you made me sound like a fool.
and fuck you for thinking so highly of yourself.
im talking about myself la, fuck.
i told you, my greatest enemy is me.
to think that within 4 hours.
you can study few months of lecture.
FUCK YOU KAYNE.
@*()*@#)&*@(&#*(@!&*(@#&(#*$&@
I'm hungry. I'm angry. I'm tired.
I'm smoking. I'm upset.
whatever la.
bitch.
12:47 AM
a car/bike, does it really gain an advantage.lets re-do our stats proj, i really want to know.
rumours how it comes and go.
hearing about everyone including myself.
hmmmm,
how reputation can be kns
by just doing something.
be it when it happen,
why it did,
how it did.
i felt omg why like that.
normal reaction
huh really meh.
but come to think of it.
its just words.
everyone's really watching.
i slap myself with shit.
as many times, i can rem.
i wish i cant thou.
but dont smack it on your face.
you may say how much you dont bother what people say.
words are curel, you might when you least expect.
how when one rumour isnt cleared, dont set another.
it hurts more than just a burnt.
hmmm.
aiyo i really no mood study accs.
i was still out chit chatting.
and jilly prob will have to call 30 times tml.
arghhhhh.
oh ya i so wanna put pictures of chewyyy gum.
tml la huh
arghhhh.
mug mug mug.
Monday, February 26, 2007, 2:15 AM
im disgused by you, me and my fucking lifestyle.
imagine.
22.40 ciggs.
30 bucks a day cab fare or more.
2-4 hrs of sleep.
rejecting mjs, clubs and meet-ups.
mugging endless hour but nth goes in.
fuck you kayne. fuck you.
just came bac frm amk.
mug alone in the night
and midnight w qi.
both in fear of failing cause of tep.
guys i think you can go ahead tep wo me.
management has tons to rem.
and they have to make all the weird terms.
slaps.
ARGH!!
and i havent finish.
i have to be up at 8.
i have to sleep
have to study accs str8 aft the paper.
and it means.
i wont sleep for 2 days.
IM ANGRY FUCKING ANGRY.
what can i promise this sem to pass.
here it goes.
if you let me pass
i promise i wont be late for tep.
and and and
i will sell as much as i can for personal selling.
more than 150 promise!
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH
okay i got to mug.
i will reply tags soon.
but i will reply two now!
dont hate me, im a busy shit mugging bastard!
Sunday, February 25, 2007, 1:37 PM
i should have known.i didnt see.
how sucha small change didnt catch me.
hmmmm,
now everything falls into place.
i refuse to ask why.
i refuse to question.
im so use to this bullshit.
eeeeks.
Saturday, February 24, 2007, 3:25 AM
is like everyone's digging a flesh outta you.and at the end of the day you realise,
you have nothing left to give.
things just keep adding on.
how i ignored and
just kept going.
now its killing me big time.
is it time of the month or
am i too screwed to live this life.
when everyone is down,
who the fuck do you turn to.
arghhhhhhhhhhh.
and the stress level isnt helping.
Friday, February 23, 2007, 1:56 AM
im full of shit.that i know.
im glad thou.
=)
you took away my stress;
words are fake, rem ?
1:00 AM
me:'stop laughing la'xxx:'dont think funny meh'
me:'you're suppose to be angry'
xxx:'angry for what'
me:'fine'
xxx:'orh la, i am la'
me:'still, sigh i feel cheated'
xxx:'fuck la!!! FOR WHAT!!!!!'
me:'YEAH!!! you're really angry'
love la.
=)
12:45 AM
read my tag read my tag.if my shoes get lost, know who huh.
aiyo aiyo,
i mugging
and where the hell is my cheerful shitface!
i need some laughter.
muahha.
Thursday, February 22, 2007, 4:32 AM
its not half full, its half empty.why are you at the back of my eye lid?
3:43 AM
your eyes tells me different things at different point of time.i wish it didnt.
the sadness i know i cant remove.
the joy i know i cant replace.
somehow while you stand in front,
i wish i could hug.
the hot and cold that keeps my words and actions away.
its not that i do not wish to speak,
there's so much to say.
but would it be what you wishes to hear?
and would you know how lovely you are by just being you.
im just digging out my courage.
till then; =)
Wednesday, February 21, 2007, 3:40 PM
i had the weirdest dream.i recieve a tape.
same location.
different levels.
how you stood in pain.
how i pass my misery.
the look in both eyes,
as if we lost someone dear.
how you stood there and watch me pass.
the way you wish you had say a word.
but you still stood there.
and as i walk you tear.
as i walk i tear.
you felt helpless,
i felt hopeless.
you didnt come and hug me,
you just stood there in tears.
but somehow i didnt know i was being watch by you.
and so i woke up in tears.
as i type this, i tear.
dont ask me why,
but it hit me.
if the roles switch,
i would have run a thousand miles to find you.
why didnt you?
4:45 AM
if only ciggies this big.
how to wear seat belt. LOL
most of the time, ciggies and vitasoy.
i had a big bed to share, i choose this. what does it show?
big huh.
that red symbol 'mrt'
'their oil free ar?'imagine those fats. eeek, fuck.
haha, as you walk their sign boards get longer. their challenge.
'you put like that, i must put longer'
HAHAHA, adverts.
i was so glad to see this.
imagine, walking, shopping for 4 hours and you see this!!!
they share the same joy.
their 'old chang kee' to me.
we con each other, to eat and eat.
'if i fat, you also have to be fat'
we ate too much.
day 1, shoes more shoes.
i was so bloody excited la. only to find out that it was bloody small.
and the only ride that was suppose to be scary was just a few turns and small drops.
have you forgotten sucha character?
jus look at the retards.
it tasted good thou.
jus look at my mother.
as usual, i was playing around.
i was trying to get her to work elsewhere. she was damn good and fast.
guess which is me?
their mrt.
everything was so mickey, so detailed, so comfy, so bloody cool.
=)
WTH!! WTH!!! just as i came outta mrt. WTHHH!!!
while waiting for them to shop
i was in love w myself for that moment la.
reunion dinner.
cheese, beef, choc fondue.
i bought 4 freaking pairs of shoes. i jus wanted diff brands la. i went abit ga-ga over shoes.
my bag that cost a boom
where our high tea was, all the lovely cars. we melt on the spot.
high tea folks. die die must.
u have the bigger one, taller one, skinny one. i dont have to mention which is me.
from the peak,
he makes me fat, i make him buy. 'nice buy la, suits you' 'nice, eat, very nice, spore dont have' haha, we're mean!
ferry view. HA.
1 hour of shopping.
omg check this out.
those few tops.
few bottoms.
when you press 'please wait' coool.
i spend a bomb.
i ate a cow.
i look like a round ball.
the weather was good.
was cold, killed me.
afterwhich i got use to it.
and now im back to days that requires only t-shirts.
no more scarf, no more jackets.
its time to knock off.
Thursday, February 15, 2007, 6:27 AM
HAPPY BIA NIAN-ING!hello, dim sum
shopping, ciggies.
mug hard, i'll be back to join.
take care kiddos =)
ive to learn to sleep w/o your voice.
4:37 AM
i realised i havent heard your voice.you're sound asleep.
and as i sneak.
i left a note.
with the ink in deep green.
'smile for me'
i giggle my way out the door.
im already missing.
1:16 AM
HAPPY VDAY GIRL!!!!!
imagine feeling helpless. when it leaks and the wrappers died on you. popular save your freaking big butt.
green roses, sweets. =)
after hours of being chunk in green dye. having me waking up every hour to check. aiyo' still not nice' in a sleepy mood,i kept adding and adding. didnt realise i use up almost all the colouring.
the starting process. after removing chunks of thorns that cuts my lovely fingers.
wrap it up. i still have tons of chocs in the fridge.
fold, fold, fold.
every <3 has a hidden meaning.
there it goes,
smiles.
=)
siglap near jeremy and wei.
to see wei there was funny!
flyers.
yes i did it.
this is call
'too free, i need to kill time'
muaha.
i swear it was funny.
esp me and bj.
'you right i left'
'bj i scare!! why like tt want'
'eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeyuuuuuuurrrr'
'got ghost, muahahaha.'
and the dogs,
which were huge.
'i dont dare go near'
ulu can fucking ulu la.
tmd.
anyway, finding aj and kris was hard.
but still jobs done!
im a busy girl.
today tml.
roses have sharp thorns.
how lovely!
imissyouimissyouimissyouimissyouimissyou.
happyv.daysweets.
i show you guys pics tml.
muahaha.
=0
im not a geek.
if you're not a player,
i wont touch my com for 20 days.
you're still a geek.
you still wouldnt not touch your com for 20 days, geek.
each foil brings a meaning.
each turn brings a joy.
as it turns and twirl.
a sweet love's born.
let me be the one to give you everything
you want and need.
baby good love and protection,
make me your selection.
show you the way love's supposed to be.
baby you should let me love you, love you, love you.
i gotta leave the house before im late again.
crappy shit.
all the snacks.
im leaving soon guys.
i didnt turn my back on you.
you turn yours on me.
and not for revenge.
fate.
i dont have money,
i dont have a car,
i dont have a license.
i cant pay for a movie.
would you still want me?
imagine me and you.
those warnings given by everyone around.
but as i walk i realise those details didnt matter anymore.
what matters most was whom i was walking to.
and girl, you would say how wrong i'm leading.
then baby, please dont tell me what's right.
cause being anywhere near you make no sense
of being wrong.
and that's the only right that keeps me going.
you see la, where got people like that want.
haha, i feel cheated being on the phone.
and there she goes missing again.
this time i dont talk to myself.
i just type my
'awake-ly good morning i feel like sleeping more entry'
haha.
okay la, i gave school a miss.
and im thinking who to meet later.
you took all the blocks i build away from me,
and only you could see whats left of me.
was fun, it took away my cash and
my energy.
going to sch and going to class is a different thing.
as i see today.
as i walk behind shadows today.
it didnt hurt.
like i've said,
the picture of you that i painted behind my eye lid was washed away by tears.
maybe its you that i want.
just being here im fine.
smiles =)
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHHA
im sucha 3rd party.
jamie, wei, jeremy
i sit like that.
he's phone suddenly ring la.
my bf's gf.
grow fat and die kayne
not my kind.
would you flash me off?
my reaction.
you know, dont you?
actions tells more than words,
jokes tells more than lies.
and this the reason why,
i believe honesty fucks.
in order to forgive her,
ive to love her.
in order to forget her,
ive to hate her.
'which?'
none.
'why?'
i cant do either.
you're at risk.
you're once said prayers
came true.
a blink of an eye,
accepting the reality.
time has become precious.
i guess life's short and enjoying it to the fullest.
cause you just never know when,
you'll say bye.
girl, it's time to let go because
i deserve a try honey
just once
give me a chance and
i'll prove this all wrong you walked in,
you were so quick to judge
but honey he's nothing like me
darling why can't you see
i'll never break your heart
i'll never make you cry
i'd rather die than live without you
i'll give you all of me
honey, that's no lie
my last night of fun,
and im waiting till the next night,
i pray.
those reflections.
reasons why, i dont sleep at night.
supposing lecture ended.
yes it did.
just see as i hop in.
im glad for a week my visions cleared of you.
as my oddly hours still continues,
i see no sign of me attending classes.
for that ten minutes of test,
i receive a pass.
and i smile today thinking,
when will i see you next?
suicidal to whom she killed,
but whom you brought to life.
sleeping at the right time.
waking up for school.
afternoon naps are my night.
and night's my afternoon.
but im loving the life im living.
i so can 1234567 boom.
i failed to keep to the rules;
just do it or quit it.
anw,i havent slept last night.
i slept in the afternoon.
4 hours.
and im not even asleep tonight.
and ive school at 8.
should i go.
stupig-kongs, both admin cards w me.
conclusion: i do give a shit.
be certain with what you think im writting.
AND ONLY YOU.
and bay, i do wish you're here.
=) hehe.
one night of fun.
there it goes, my love.
jilly loves to snap me when im busy.
dont take me la darling.
flyer's partner, hor uncle!
okay ive a plane to catch in a few hours time.
jilly loves to snap me when im busy.
dont take me la darling.
flyer's partner, hor uncle!okay ive a plane to catch in a few hours time.
i havent pack. arghhh.
im a shy kid.
as i stood at the bus stop,
you can never imagine that
silly heart beat of mine.
like im gonna pass out the next moment.
and you came,
it skip a beat.
your smile,
made it all worth it.
made it all worth it.
okay i got to go pack.
Wednesday, February 14, 2007, 1:51 AM
Happy V.day My Love.smiles.
=)
siglap near jeremy and wei.
to see wei there was funny!
flyers.
yes i did it.
this is call
'too free, i need to kill time'
muaha.
i swear it was funny.
esp me and bj.
'you right i left'
'bj i scare!! why like tt want'
'eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeyuuuuuuurrrr'
'got ghost, muahahaha.'
and the dogs,
which were huge.
'i dont dare go near'
ulu can fucking ulu la.
tmd.
anyway, finding aj and kris was hard.
but still jobs done!
im a busy girl.
today tml.
roses have sharp thorns.
how lovely!
imissyouimissyouimissyouimissyouimissyou.
happyv.daysweets.
i show you guys pics tml.
muahaha.
=0
Tuesday, February 13, 2007, 1:53 AM
if you're not a player,im not a geek.
if you're not a player,
i wont touch my com for 20 days.
you're still a geek.
you still wouldnt not touch your com for 20 days, geek.
each foil brings a meaning.
each turn brings a joy.
as it turns and twirl.
a sweet love's born.
Monday, February 12, 2007, 1:32 AM
guys i need more fr wrappers
i feel so happy.
like a newly born fat kid.
thanks to all of them who fed me endless junk and good food.
like a newly born fat kid.
thanks to all of them who fed me endless junk and good food.
after 8 scars.
what more can burning be.
what more can burning be.
still i cant stand the itch.
that idert who first step on my toe
and then burn me.
argh.
mj 2 nights.
im a pr.
im a pr.
sat there throughout.
luck is coming my way.
still no money involve.
i dont know what i did to deserve all these luck.
fun, never when you're not around.
Sunday, February 11, 2007, 5:18 PM
you should let me love you,let me be the one to give you everything
you want and need.
baby good love and protection,
make me your selection.
show you the way love's supposed to be.
baby you should let me love you, love you, love you.
i gotta leave the house before im late again.
3:59 PM
mj till weee hours.
i swear we were so bloody high.
esp at 4 plus 5.
crappy shit.
all the snacks.
you cheated!
thanks to kane
another food
thanks to kane
another food
if we keep eating and eating!
thousand and one smoke breaks.
two thousand two snack breaks.
im leaving soon guys.
everyone will be mugging.
im like so gonna be dead.
oh ya.
for vday,
im thinking of getting myself a ipod video.
should i ?
should i not?
i dont think what said is important.
Saturday, February 10, 2007, 3:12 AM
by the way.i didnt turn my back on you.
you turn yours on me.
and not for revenge.
fate.
i dont have money,
i dont have a car,
i dont have a license.
i cant pay for a movie.
would you still want me?
Thursday, February 08, 2007, 11:59 PM
imagine me and you.imagine you and him.
FUN-MEAN-YEAH-MAN-DAY
Convo 1.
'you wear like that handsome'
'you wear like that handsome'
'ya la today morning i look in the mirror i also think handsome'
they show the ....... face.
'HAHAHAHAHAHAHA'
Convo 2.
'maybe we should sponsor and buy him a shoe'
'eeeyur you all very mean'
'wah lau we cannot take it one lor'
Convo 3.
'your ass very big'
'your ass very big'
'really meh, darling they say my ass big, big meh'
'dont bully her la'
i swear school's fun.
i have the best mates.
who will just pei me whenever and wherever.
though im mean.
haha.
you wait for the phone to beep,
you stare till it rings.
you crave for the existance,
you wish for the suprise.
that's when you know you're in love.
Wednesday, February 07, 2007, 10:54 PM
all the details that were said i've to be careful.those warnings given by everyone around.
but as i walk i realise those details didnt matter anymore.
what matters most was whom i was walking to.
and girl, you would say how wrong i'm leading.
then baby, please dont tell me what's right.
cause being anywhere near you make no sense
of being wrong.
and that's the only right that keeps me going.
1:50 PM
'IM IRONING MY CLOTHES, STOP TALKING TO YOURSELF LA'you see la, where got people like that want.
haha, i feel cheated being on the phone.
and there she goes missing again.
this time i dont talk to myself.
i just type my
'awake-ly good morning i feel like sleeping more entry'
haha.
okay la, i gave school a miss.
and im thinking who to meet later.
you took all the blocks i build away from me,
and only you could see whats left of me.
1:07 AM
if we didnt, hmm.
maybe we would be, hmm.
a day to rem indeed.
ben sherman, im coming to get another one of you.
Tuesday, February 06, 2007, 8:43 PM
3 days not coming home or home at 6am.was fun, it took away my cash and
my energy.
going to sch and going to class is a different thing.
as i see today.
as i walk behind shadows today.
it didnt hurt.
like i've said,
the picture of you that i painted behind my eye lid was washed away by tears.
maybe its you that i want.
just being here im fine.
smiles =)
12:36 PM
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHHA
im sucha 3rd party.
jamie, wei, jeremy
i sit like that.
he's phone suddenly ring la.i lazy rotate.
i didnt tell them,
we tried to test their eyes.
but they all spot that red line.
they were so happy for me.
but hello its not even it la.
you guys happy for what.
worst i woke up today
'check your neck got mroe line not'
classic you know.
who's that idert!
and then the best part.
'CB, what kind of shoe its that.'
'wah lau wats CB?'
'not nike not converse?'
'CB??????????? wat CB??'
'i swear he's like knn.'
cb and knn are not bad words.
im not the kind to rem things that suck.
tell me what happen.
ha.
Monday, February 05, 2007, 6:21 AM
my bf's gf.whenever i call her.
'hello darling ar'
grow fat and die kayne
not my kind.
would you flash me off?
for a 2 dollar bet, nut case. HA
more and more late nights,
going to school w/o sleep.
rushing home in the afternoon to sleep.
and then out again till wee hours.
i need to change my whole lifestyle.
it's time for shower and off to school.
thats the only way i can hear or see you,
now the silence freaks.
Sunday, February 04, 2007, 7:41 PM
your msg,my reaction.
you know, dont you?
actions tells more than words,
jokes tells more than lies.
and this the reason why,
i believe honesty fucks.
in order to forgive her,
ive to love her.
in order to forget her,
ive to hate her.
'which?'
none.
'why?'
i cant do either.
the only thing im sorry of, my bad for being playful.
4:02 AM
when its said,you're at risk.
you're once said prayers
came true.
a blink of an eye,
accepting the reality.
time has become precious.
i guess life's short and enjoying it to the fullest.
cause you just never know when,
you'll say bye.
girl, it's time to let go because
i deserve a try honey
just once
give me a chance and
i'll prove this all wrong you walked in,
you were so quick to judge
but honey he's nothing like me
darling why can't you see
i'll never break your heart
i'll never make you cry
i'd rather die than live without you
i'll give you all of me
honey, that's no lie
my last night of fun,
and im waiting till the next night,
i pray.
Saturday, February 03, 2007, 5:05 AM
stars.those reflections.
reasons why, i dont sleep at night.
Friday, February 02, 2007, 4:07 PM
8 and im here at 2.supposing lecture ended.
yes it did.
just see as i hop in.
im glad for a week my visions cleared of you.
as my oddly hours still continues,
i see no sign of me attending classes.
for that ten minutes of test,
i receive a pass.
and i smile today thinking,
when will i see you next?
suicidal to whom she killed,
but whom you brought to life.
3:49 AM
i should start coming home early.sleeping at the right time.
waking up for school.
afternoon naps are my night.
and night's my afternoon.
but im loving the life im living.
i so can 1234567 boom.
i failed to keep to the rules;
just do it or quit it.
Thursday, February 01, 2007, 5:56 AM
if you dont give a shit, will you feel a pinch?anw,i havent slept last night.
i slept in the afternoon.
4 hours.
and im not even asleep tonight.
and ive school at 8.
should i go.
stupig-kongs, both admin cards w me.
conclusion: i do give a shit.
be certain with what you think im writting.
5:08 AM
I'LL ONLY DO IT FOR YOU.AND ONLY YOU.
and bay, i do wish you're here.
=) hehe.
1:55 AM
one night of fun.hello mr bookmark.
today's hell.
11 people in class.
im like wat shit.
and then i realise its 2 hours only.
e learn.
god damnit how will i know.
the least you should expect is me being
in a class when its only 2 hrs of school.
and after a long time.
im taking a one year break.
lets bet kiddos.
cancel that 3 months bet.
its already coming 2.
cheers.
kayne has yet to sleep.
and losing blood isnt the ideal thing now.
for the first time.
im wishing for a 48 hours day tml.
i need my bed.
anyhow.
dont is harder than do.
so please dont say dont.
11 people in class.
im like wat shit.
and then i realise its 2 hours only.
e learn.
god damnit how will i know.
the least you should expect is me being
in a class when its only 2 hrs of school.
and after a long time.
im taking a one year break.
lets bet kiddos.
cancel that 3 months bet.
its already coming 2.
cheers.
kayne has yet to sleep.
and losing blood isnt the ideal thing now.
for the first time.
im wishing for a 48 hours day tml.
i need my bed.
anyhow.
dont is harder than do.
so please dont say dont.