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    that point of time;
    Wednesday, May 30, 2007, 1:01 AM

    seriously this entry has no start no end.

    not about the unhappiness, there isnt any. the things in exchange for the happiness that keeps me awake til morn.the thoughts that goes on and on with no full stop. am i selfish to do what i did. am i taking away everything that even i do not know of. would you smile if you only had one. would you get upset if i told you what im about to do. just the thoughts ate me up, i couldnt function at all. i tried to keep myself awake so that my emotions could be hidden, i tried to pretend like it meant nothing. when it comes to love, am i just such a sucker at acting. or is it this time round there's no fake emotions.

    argh.


    uuomhnsyisi




    Tuesday, May 29, 2007, 2:13 AM

    the weirdest thing that happen.
    1.50 am kane called.
    1.57 am deb called.
    1.58 am cheryl called.
    and it happens after i put down each call.

    3 of my closest friends.
    all with different request and so on.

    can feelings be blamed.
    why do we do things that we ourselves dont have explanation for.
    who has the right to say whats right and whats wrong.
    if every actions of us have to be answered to someone,
    then who do we live for.
    come to think of it.

    who rules us, our heart or minds.

    like what
    k said, 'dont bother thinking, this whys will never be ans.'
    me, ' but we spend half of our life bothering about such stuff'

    say true?

    i wished tonight i could walk around the wishing well.
    not for the best of us.
    not for the best of me.
    but the best for you.

    and as usual.
    the 2 kinds of happy.
    happy just by having the one you love.
    or happy the real kind of happy.
    im both.



    baby you're the right kind of wrong;




    Sunday, May 27, 2007, 4:11 AM

    photos way back and today.
    madness. wanna die still so happy.
    i was lying opposite. another veg day.
    today. hrc.
    damn sick la fuck. ugly ugly LOL.
    si kane extra hands.
    the one who makes me go crazy with laughter.
    qian bian.
    the one who brings me back to reality.
    let's drink and dance and smoke DUH-UH.
    ah gong.
    eeewww i oso want.

    after one month plus.
    i decided 'fuck it lets have fun'
    and so will wed and thurs.
    partiessss.

    still, i refuse to dance with anyone. ha.
    if only you were there,sweets.

    i wanna zz.
    am damn ...

    i think we aint tanning tml.


    i............. c=




    Saturday, May 26, 2007, 4:55 AM

    it's it so hard to kick a habit.
    no not smoking, you bloody wish.

    i dont say bye, i just put down.

    every friday nights are like dvds at cine night.

    after 3 days of homely i-dont-know-why but ya.
    outta comfort zone.

    it's amazing how i use to go on ranting i still do la.
    but now, if i dont feel good i rather piak myself home.

    can you miss someone until you feel like buying all her time.
    im evil, i sound like some despo oh help me kid.
    eeee.

    can a secret be a secret just because no one asked or mention?

    ha.

    can i not say any sweet words tonight.
    im sorry but i cant find any to describe the sweetness within.

    love c=




    Thursday, May 24, 2007, 11:43 PM

    it's the stage whereby im about to turn stone cold.




    Wednesday, May 23, 2007, 9:26 PM

    i havent talk to a human being for more than 30mins.
    even at work.


    i dont have a single thought of meeting anyone.

    i dont feel like getting out of my house.

    i sit alone in the middle of the dinning table.

    and ate udon, when the table is catered to 6.

    i smoke less than usual, cause im not even interested to puff.


    i didnt on the air con neither did i open my windows.

    i just feel like being alone.


    i have totally become a stranger, i hardly even recognise.




    1:22 AM

    its the time of the month.
    mense is seriously like a bug
    that sucks all my happy thoughts.

    iliketothinkofitasahappythoughtbutnottoday.

    fuck.

    im having rash, on my face.
    what a bitch.




    Monday, May 21, 2007, 11:54 PM

    teach me how not to go on and on about someone. teach me how to not think and think about this someone. teach me how to not dream and dream about this someone.

    go to sleep kayne.
    have a happy night.

    heh.




    8:13 PM

    im not standing sides neither do i think i have the right to.

    it's irritating enough to have 13 calls from your frens
    while you're asleep, moreover it's the first time i come home straight after work.

    and some bugger have to irritate me.

    let me make this clear.
    i dont bother who or what and who side the person is siding.

    i just think that it is fucking childish to go on and on over something that has pass.

    and to my knowledge it is well over.
    a misunderstanding.

    if im not bothered, why should you?

    you have nothing better to do is it?

    stop bugging me!
    esp when im asleep, fucker.




    12:01 AM

    every since work started, i love weekends.
    bloody meaningful ones.
    ps: if you wanna scroll below, please be old enough or at least open minded.
    ha.
    shopping w a & d.
    then the long racing road to j's place.
    mj-ing for a few rounds.
    next time show you my snake!
    swimming!
    the things you'll only do in the pool.
    NO where else but in the pool.
    maybe chlorine gives you guts. ha.

    i look bloody ugly, it was 2 plus.
    imagine how tired we are.

    make sure, you're old enough.
    -
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    guess who came out with this suggestion?!?
    classic, priceless.

    there's a thing called art.
     guess?

    lunch at 4 plus 5.
    we woke up, headed to the nearest sushi place.
    'fei si ni ar. fei si ni!'

    one each uglies

    the carbonated drink!

    and for today, we went in the pool again.
    this time round.
    throwing each other.
    spinning/handstand/canonball/
    double/couple's fight!

    i swear D's a killer.
    no one can win her in cat fight.
    like that hit one is it!

    both D's are a killer.
    except one punch the other scratch!

    omg this weekends's a killer itself.
    i can so sleep now.

    slight peek about staying with me.
    i steal toliets!!
    lol.

    love,wouldnt it be nice?




    Saturday, May 19, 2007, 2:33 PM

    the dreams.

    I'm starting to discover
    the hidden secrets of a silent killer.

    death note 2 dvd @ cine.
    pack with my love one.
    & boxes of donut.

    hello lady, xoxo.




    Friday, May 18, 2007, 7:17 AM

    since im up,might as well.

    han-tu shrek.
    im a pretty boy shrek.the wats going on? shrek.
    im not being bias but i cant load mine and biggie-me.
    lol.

    ktv

    meaning :
    i dont have to blog during the weekends.

    random:
    i like morning.
    it makes you feel good.

    goodmorning kiddos. =)




    6:45 AM

    im up and early.
    it's amzing how, sleeping early can help.
    its just the first and earliest time.

    just that my head hurts so bad.
    i think i slept too much.

    i see soccer day.



    c= imu.




    Wednesday, May 16, 2007, 3:33 AM

    the sleepy days are over.
    medical certs and more.

    F up.
    im disgusted by the way you handle stuff.
    and how you go around bouncing people.
    thinking its all about you.

    the way you do the things you do.
    its impossible to get things into you.
    so i told her 'fuck it'
    'people just dont appreciate, so dont bother trying again'

    and you deserve every shit that happens to you.

    funny convos.

    xxxx: 'its that one la, really!!'
    yyyy: 'wah lau, can you imagine how their kids will look like?'
    xxxx: 'i dont want to!'
    -_-" i so swear it wasnt me!

    kkkk:'whats the longest did you manage to stay single?'
    aaaa:'9-6'
    kkkk:'WHAT?'
    hahahahahahahahahhahaha.




    ilikeyoumorethantheusualdonuts.

    im feeling happy.

    sex and the city time.




    Tuesday, May 15, 2007, 1:14 AM

    priceless.
    funny, funny, funny.

    is it possible to ask of you alone.




    Monday, May 14, 2007, 1:22 AM

    say hello to mr oversized berry.

    u furry little thing
    ure worst then me, u have no eyes.
    he's super adorable.

    haha. doesnt it remind you of the big furry dog in the advert.

    today was fucked.
    but forgotten.
    cheers.




    Saturday, May 12, 2007, 2:17 AM


    i woke up feeling damn good.
    only to realise a m.f*ing shitface was on mc.
    and i had to cover.

    with the personal selling out today,
    i was about to kill myself seeing the number
    of stuff i had to take to work.

    thank god i tick home delivery.
    well, you'll see in the pics that i have many mochi!!

    work half shift,
    there was a party.
    but with all the big bosses,
    we just took a peek.

    but i have to admit going back to work
    was great, they just made me laugh my ass off.

    though the first few hour i was packing mochis from carton to bags.
    we had 12 carton btw.
    Q-ed for 6 hr/ donut factory

    never guess you would. i appreciate it deeply
    the right choice, with a simple note. that leave me speechless.

    the amt of mochi at home!

    anyone wants?
    they're taking up space in my room
    and so, im giving it away.
    i still have in the fridge! damn it.

    the result of:
    not asking people to buy.


    imyournumberonefan;




    Wednesday, May 09, 2007, 7:47 AM

    i feel like shit.
    is it just me.




    Monday, May 07, 2007, 1:34 AM


    entry first la huh!
    after that all your long awaited many pics.

    the weekends.
    i miss clubbing, i think they do to.

    'keep myself outta temptations'
    'as if you wont find it else where'
    '-_-'

    ive been thinking a lot this days.
    it's thrilling to guess other's feelings.
    but it's tiring to find answers.

    oh but well, thats the fun part i guess.

    how often do someone spot a habit you yourself dont know.
    deb did, okay mayb cause she's a freak that observes.
    even me myself dont realise how i hold a cup/watsoever
    with two hands when i drink drinks that are super delicious.
    did anyone spot that?

    besides the fact that when i eat fries/or food, i use all fingers.
    ha.
    i think only in front of those who i know for like 10mil yrs,
    other than that i dont think you get to see that side of me.
    i shy la.

    oh i hate the rumours spreading fast part.
    even if mouth are kept tightly sealed, somehow
    the eyes are still watching.

    town, we heard a totally different rendition of stuff.
    hmm how long can a good secret be kept.

    bloody irritants.
    now you see why, i rather not let everyone know.
    lets see what i have here.
    no1. KRISSY'S birthday smash.
    no.2 prawning & dinner
    no3. sch
    no4.mj mj mj.
    HAPPY BIRTHDAY KRISSSY!!!
    check out the words.
    'hey baby blow us'
    muahaha.
    who's the mixture of perverts who came out w that?
    guess?

    eeeyur peep wat!

    they(kane&devon) as usual those who come out with the as usual plan.
    putting a candle in the middle of the cake. use your damn tongue to get it out.

    poor girl!
    and she chase me, honey, cal and kane.
    fuck la it wasnt even me!!!
    i always kana want leh.

    me : 'dont be like darius, i didnt smash you hor'

    table for 20 at coffee club!

    prawning at yishun!

    the view was good.

    cant really be seen but ya!

    'bottle tree'

    VW drive round.

    day in sch!

    hey qi, i miss you!

    cheers infamous boy & mr cheeky shitface. ha!

    veg day (meaning: im a lazy ass day! & i dont move at all!)

    'the lover's meal!'

    mjmjmj

    lucky piece of shit!

    lights out,lust time. muaha.
    you cheeky piece of shit!!!


    come to me, i can be what you need. =)




    Friday, May 04, 2007, 4:18 AM

    i turn 'red' in the office today.




    Wednesday, May 02, 2007, 2:52 AM

    toogoodtobetrue

    im back and addicted to grey's anatomy.
    the question to today's episode
    'imagine sleeping with your best friend'

    omg omg omg omg fuck.

    you're taking up every single brain cells of mine,




    Tuesday, May 01, 2007, 3:28 AM

    don't skin me, love me still;

    every year come this day, i wish for it to stay.
    the pain they put you through was nothing compared to this.
    i cry tonight thinking, if you're watching me from above.
    the tears that does not roll yet bleed down my skin.
    i look through the pictures of you and i.

    tonight i pray you'll be by me,
    while i sleep in your arms again.

    i kneel tonight to show you a piece,
    could you stay and watch me sleep.

    nothing beats the love you have for me.
    and tonight i silently greet,

    happy death anniversary.
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